This was so abrupt, so unexpected. My brain knows what happened… but it won’t accept it. I understand that God does not make mistakes. But we thought we had more time. We had plans, real plans, for the next 5–10 years. And then, just like that… you were gone. Only 39. Gone too soon. I still feel you deeply. I know you haven’t left me. I still love you like you’re here, like you’re going to wake up from a nap and walk into the kitchen with one of your jokes. I miss talking t